It's pretty obvious if you talk to me in person.
I was reading through some of my older posts and WOW. I sound like a whiny loser who can't use spell check, and these posts weren't from more than two or three years ago. But it's ok because no one is interested enough to go and hunt down my old posts and make fun of me! I love being extremely invisible and not particularly e-famous. Lurking is the way to go, guys.
In art related news, I have branched out. I have been mortally afraid of using computers for art since I was a wee little scribbler. I still can't draw free hand in photoshop with or without my tablet, but I'm getting more comfortable with using it to color my work. I'm really getting the hang of the pen tool in Illustrator now, and that gives me some much needed confidence boosting. I'm still a really really really really painfully long way away from being any good at this whole digital art thing, but it's the way of the future! And my room mates are pretty BAMF at it, so they help me out.
In the real world, I've finally picked up oil paints. I'm panicking a little, and it's not just the $100 receipt from Utrecht. I've only done one sketchy painting in class so far, but God help me, I'm awful at it. A little more than half way through a three hour class and my painting looks like water colors because I'm so scared of using the pigment. The final result was okay as first tries go, but WHOA the face on this thing is straight out of my nightmares. I then had to hang it on my dorm wall to dry, so every time I sat at my desk it was STARING AT ME. It's dry now so I hid it under my bed. Now I feel like it's staring at me through the mattress. I will never be clean.
Well, I can't stay this incompetent forever, right? Sooner or later I'm sure to get better. RIGHT?